Kate's Little Nook

while aboard the elevator going down, i was contemplating on my stay at lexmark. for almost three months of stay, i haven't found some guy who caught my eye. towards my way to the vending machine, head bent, i asked myself where could these species be, i am sure god allocated some of them in this company! as i took my cup from the machine, i was on my way back to the elevator... then, lo and behold! as if god was reading my thoughts, enter in this hot guy. tall, fair-skinned and utterly handsome, possessing an ngelic face. how much percentage is the chance of him and me riding the same elevator in going up? i was on the elevator already while he was still swiping his i.d. card at the reception area. as i keyed in my floor number, the door won't slide close. push, push, push, close, open, close, open. and then by some extended luck, he was there, in front of me, going in! wow, 7th floor! that's where one specie is located! he alighted the elevator. i had the chance of seeing...

That's why I forbid myself in going there every now and then.  Because I see the place empty.  What makes it empty is the absence of you.  Even when you're gone, I still see you noisily moving around in that corner.  It's only you who could give life to the place.  Only you . . .

I sent him a message but then he chose to ignore it.  Come to think of it, i knew what would be the outcome of that act. Why this time, it does not hurt any longer?  Maybe I have come to realizing and accepting that things are really over between him and me.  I am better off being alone.  Hmmm, I really am comfortable being alone.  As of now, I am not ready to enter into another relationship.  Don't get me wrong, I want to be in a relationship, but the time's not right for me now. I knew in the beginning I liked him and I had genuine feelings for him.  But during the duration of our relationship, I was not really able to admit that HE WAS THE ONE.  But when he was gone, I began to realize he could have been the one. Well, for him to be the one, it does not need for me only to decide.  He chose to leave me and if leaving me would make him happy, then let the case be as it is.  Could he have been the one, only time can tell. All i want t...

Not long ago, when I was so busy with school and my life, people kept on inviting me to go to this and to go to that, do this and do that.  Now that I am done with school, they are all gone!  Sigh! Now i am stuck in the house for 2 whole days.  Plan did not go through last night because they joined another night out with another group.  It made me really angry.  Should I be at my boiling point right now?  I hate fickle-minded people.  People who only lets me wait and in the end, let me wait for nothing. No game this afternoon to.  People begged-off.  And I am alone with  you netbook. Thank you net book for coming into my life!  Without you, I would not know what I am doing right now.  Might be facing my law books?  Double sigh!

It hurts me to see you happy-- It hurts me to see that you've moved on-- The mere sight of you hurts me-- How much more if you find another one? God, please help me-- Make it hurt no more-- (I hope I would be laughing at this in the future, I really hate myself right now...)